even without trying really hard, the body will simply degrade.
the joint aches and pulled muscles here and there tell the sad story more completely than words can.
the tension in my throbbing right hand is an undisputable sign of overwork; but the mouse & keyboard, piano and playstation controller beckon daily.
so what's a guy to do?
what is emotional self-containment?
it is the deadening of the ability to trust in others and avoidance of risk in affectionate attachments (john bowlby, 1956).
from infancy to adulthood, this painfully-developed paradigm usually persists.
i'm not sure which is worse: discovering this is true of oneself, or never finding out?
bowlby, john (1956). the growth of independence in the young child. royal society of health journal, vol. 76, pp. 587-591.