here are some portrait shots of the family and friends of the birthday boy, rui.
by william blake
1757 - 1827
i was angry with my friend:
i told my wrath, my wrath did end.
i was angry with my foe;
i told it not, my wrath did grow.
and i water'd it in fears,
night & morning with my tears;
and I sunned it with my smiles
and with soft deceitful wiles.
and it grew both day and night,
till it bore an apple bright;
and my foe beheld it shine,
and he knew that it was mine,
and into my garden stole
when the night had veil'd the pole:
in the morning glad i see
my foe outstretch'd beneath the tree

it's been a long time since i've seethed in a thoughtless comment shot from a thoughtless individual.
how can mere words contain such debilitating poison?
much as i am in the training to be the bigger person and display magnanimity, the awful truth is i possess neither the capacity nor desire to do so.
and a wounded day bleeds away.
"you look troubled", rui had intoned evenly.
it was a quiet revelation to hear someone else articulate into words how i have been feeling.
such are the truths that our own eyes are blinded to for better or for worse.
today, up above, a pale greyness loomed over me.
i guess we can't always have everything we desire, perhaps more so when we are without inkling to what they truly are.
a compact camera produces pictures of very different feel than a dslr. i'm finding that i have to relearn many aspects of photography.
i'm enjoying it, though. here are two more outdoor pictures.
having spent a little bit more time with the new cam, i'm finding it relatively easy to use. reponse is quick, colors are bright and vibrant, and details are superb for a point & shoot.
here's a demo shot. you can click on it for a larger view.
i used to enjoy the peace that solitude brings. by severing all that chained me to this pulsing world, i could suspend myself in my mind and soak up the sense of freedom and possibility.
there, i could race with the wind and explore the ocean depths.
frozen in time until life yanks me back.
i can't do that anymore.
how do you behave around someone who reminds you acutely of another person - one that brings out the worst in you?
my head knows the right thing to do, but the heart defiantly beats a will all its own.
am i ready to extricate myself from this wreckage?
or more realistically, will i ever be?